Above the stars shine, yet you say it is dark?
Look to the stars and they will guide you. They will speak to you in ways you cannot hear.
But will cut into your heart, that you may learn to hear.
That your heart may cry whilst it hears not the calling of the stars but is deafened by your murmurings. Speak not. But hear your heart and hear the way of the passage to the stars.
Above, the darkness takes over the night sky and the mist is thick, but you cannot say that all the suns of the universe have extinguished.
Because as it is said, one of those stars is yours, and in your heart remains the bond, so in this way, listen well to your heart.
Many footsteps have trodden through the dessert, and many have covered over by sand million-fold. And many more have passed only and left aside the journey to the stars.
I perhaps believe in the stars, but in me is that same journey many people have taken and left. There is no telling that my eyes will not wane away their glance. There is no guarantee my hands will not lose grip on the one thing I believe in most. Nothing is certain.
Yet I have seen the strong and I have seen the weak and I have felt that nothing is different between their distance to the stars. Because nothing is certain.
And yet we cannot do it alone. Nor can we take praise upon us or our actions, for nothing is certain.
I cannot believe it is possible to lose everything for pride. To give up this entire journey, before one really understands what is beyond those stars. To believe we know everything. I have no words for this. Yet I know somewhere I can fail here just the same because there is no way of knowing what will be.
I hope that this determination for truth rests in my heart, when I am frail, when I am weak and when I am strong. And may the direction in which our heart speaks to each of us be the strongest point of contact, and that we may never forget the true place we are going. Home.
During the recent year so much has changed as if the world has shifted, but it is also a time to test the actions of my heart. If they have loving words, but only lukewarm, or if the love in my heart is burning to manifest and to help the light in the world?
How can the calling of my heart guide me? How can the whispers of another time be understood? How can divinity be practiced and made manifest through the human touch?
Although there is more depth then I can ever give credit to, I am gently reminded of this quote from the Gospel of Thomas:
“If the flesh came into being because of spirit, it is a wonder. But if spirit came into being because of the body, it is a wonder of wonders. Indeed, I am amazed at how this great wealth has made its home in this poverty.”
It seems as though there is a deep alchemical message here, yet I am also reminded of the whole pursuit of living out spirituality through the physical body that has been given to us, and bringing about actions which come frome the spirit, to daily life, to living and learning, that this spirituality, the essence, the spirit may have its chance to influence what is in the world, whether it is in relationships or events, and this can only take place through our actions, and not through nice ideas which stay intact in our mind.
Time will tell how far I go or how comfortable I remain. Because as I see it, there is nothing more that I need then a strong heart that yearns for divinity. And I know in some way that efforts of the heart will help pave the steps towards this longing. Therfore I pray that I may have the understanding, the guidance and strength to act correctly in defence of light in the world and the teachings of Belzebuub. That somehow, love, understanding, forgiveness, justice, wisdom and truth will appear through actions and not just ideals.
And now with all of my heart, I say it completely honestly. I would not be here had it not been for the guidance, simplicity, teaching, love and wisdom of Belzebuub, who to me, has clearly taken this journey towards divinity and touched it deeply that he may bring it to the world, so that the world may know it. I am ever greatful and it is not right for those who are against this spiritual journey to oppress him, and in this way oppressing this opportunity for others to find this journey to take on their own.
‘’The path to the light becomes increasingly narrow as we walk it. Only the light of the Being can lead the way through the terrible encompassing darkness.’’
-Belzebuub, Gazing into the Eternal
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